Opening Up About Major Depression, Social Anxiety, and Being a Matchmaker: A Personal Journey
Matchmaker Nick Rosen
About a year ago, during a routine check-up, my doctor handed me a PHQ-9 questionnaire to assess my level of depression. Scoring a 24, I was categorized with severe depression. This didn't really shock me; I've been wrestling with social anxiety and depression since I was 12. Despite having a stable and loving upbringing, I've always felt a sense of shame for struggling internally when, on the surface, I had so much to be grateful for.
This inner conflict, I've come to realize, isn't unique to me. It's something many people experience, and it's partly why I find my work as a matchmaker so fulfilling. Matchmaking isn't just about setting people up on dates; it's about encouraging them to open up and be vulnerable. Every time I help a client navigate the complexities of relationships, I feel a sense of accomplishment. That said, it's not always smooth sailing. The nature of my job means that when things don't go as planned, I take it personally, even though I know it's not always within my control.
Running my matchmaking company has been incredibly rewarding, but it hasn't magically made my mental health struggles disappear. There are days when getting out of bed feels like an impossible task, and my anxiety seems to take over every thought. It's a stark contrast to the parts of my job that require high levels of social interaction and energy.
Despite these challenges, I'm becoming more comfortable with the idea of being more open about my mental health. As my company and I gain more public attention, I hope to use my platform to advocate for mental health awareness. I've learned that taking care of myself isn't just about making my own life better; it's also about being able to give my best to my clients.
In the end, my experiences with depression and social anxiety have given me a unique perspective on vulnerability and personal growth, both in my professional life and beyond. I'm learning to embrace these aspects of myself, hoping that by sharing my story, I can encourage others to do the same. After all, it's through understanding and supporting each other that we can all move forward.
Resources (Will Continue to Add to):
Alma for Teletherapy: https://helloalma.com/
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